Anniversary

Happy Anniversary J.

Was a year ago now that I fell so hard, I still haven't been able to fully pick myself up.

Thank you for being you.

Thank you for organising dinner at my favourite restaurant tonight.
I secretly wish we could cancel and just stay in bed all night.
Instead, I won't wear any panties under my dress and I'll keep reminding you of that, until you beg for us to leave! hahaha!

Love,

E x

16 days

Aaaargh!!!!

Please, no.

It's all of our worst nightmares coming true.



Well, when you live here it is.

16 days until our city is totally taken over, for the Commonwealth Games. Now, I think the only people that read me are from America, so this will mean absolutely nothing to you. Which is a brilliant thing for us, because you guys can't compete, so you can't bloody kick our asses at EVERYTHING!!!!

Now if you do live in Melbourne - it's true folks, you will not be able to get on a train, tram, bus or hail a cab for 10 straight days. If you think it's going to be one massive party, think again - it's going to be complete madness.
Try to do what I'm going to do and just tune it out. Try to stop bitching about how the public transport system will buckle under the pressure - we all know it sucks anyways.

Now don't get me wrong - I love sport. All sport. I do not discriminate.
Give me a football game over Swan Lake anyday.

But what gets my panties in a twist is the ridiculous amount of money this city is spending on this 10 days.
Money that could be better spent on health, education and not to mention help for the homeless.

This city is in panic mode, trying to get all of the homeless people off the streets. For 10 days. For 10 friggin days, so we don't look *silly* in front of the world. After the 10 days are over, who knows. #$&@!!*%!!!!!!!!!!

Am I the only one that would rather see the money spent on finding them permanant shelter, food and warmth. They are starving on our streets and the majority need serious psychiatric care. Instead, the city is spending thousands of dollars on steam cleaning statues on Swanston Street.

I've done some research and apparently this happened in Sydney for the Olympics too. All of the cities hosting Olympic/Commonwealth Games have done it.

This breaks my heart.

Shouldn't this be against the law???

Busy

As the title suggests, work is busy, social life busy, family busy - and I am completely exhausted.
Actually I think it is beyond exhaustion... is there a word for that!?

That worst thing about me being tired and run down is that I get sore red eyes. I'm not talking your glassy, had one too many drinks last night, need a berocca, red eyes. I'm talking, I just smoked a whole pound of grass to myself, red eyes.

This time around, its only one eye. So I kinda look like Marilyn Manson.
It's so bad that the guy I buy my coffee from each morning (who usually checks me out and indulges in a friendly flirt) said: "Damn girl! Have you been in a rumble!??!"

Another guy from work mentioned (under his breath), that maybe J should work on improving his aim. (!!!!)
Had to laugh...

But tonight J and I are going out for drinks with friends... Something I've been looking forward to since I arrived at work Monday. And damnit, I was gunna look HOT!

I need Clear Eyes STAT! Either that or an eye patch. Hmmmm, don't think I'm in the mood for any pirate jokes.

Anyway, have a good weekend my friends!

Love,

Your Bung Eyed Bessie

Mothers Club

I had a nice weekend. But things seemed so sureal, like I wasn't myself.

Things change...


Sunday was a welcome back party for my good friend K, who just got back from NZ, engaged and pregnant!
She is the third of my friends from high school to be having a baby and the forth to have a ring on her finger.

This totally freaks me out.

When I first moved out of home, us girls shared a house together out in the suburbs. 3 young single gals together makes for one brilliant party house. Shit, you couldn't even get in the door without a slab of beer and a pack of cards to play strip polka. I can't count the amount of times I woke up to find some random person snoring on the couch - back packers usually.

Some great memories and great friendships came from that house - and on Sunday as we sat around talking babies and engagement parties I stuggled to get my head around it.

The last time I remember all of us scrambling to take photos of something, was when our friend Guy put on a red thong and streaked around the neighbourhood, screaming "Check out my ass!", to old ladies in their front gardens.
Now when the child eats a potato chip ... or smiles... or moves her arm.... it's like a blind panic..."Quick get the camera... THE CAMERA!"

I'm happy for my girls, they deserve all the happiness in the world.... but it's just SO, FREAKIN, WEIRD.

Hmmmmm, I guess now, it's my turn to grow up...

Rant

Well my weekend is gone and I'm back at work and I hate it.

I can't do this job.

When they hired me over a year ago, I was actually taking over 2 full-time jobs, because the company was downsizing. This was a massive mistake. I think I have just been kidding myself to think that it is actually possible. I cannot keep my boss happy, he hates me. I forget to do things because I have a million other things I'm working through and I get frowned upon because I'm SO disorganised.

I literally have no motivation to do this! The money is crap and I am always scrambling around trying to make ends meet. I'm still trying to complete my degree through correspondence. I was forced to give up my second job waitressing (which actually pays better than this job) because I was just, SO tired. Doing three things at once isn't good for your health. All work and no play makes for a very grumpy and stressed out little girly.

I am at a loss on what to do. I am always under so much pressure and I really do try. I try and be organised and do a billion things at once, I try and catch up on the loads and loads of filing that always gets overlooked. I try to breathe deeply and smile.

I try to be professional and not take things personally, but how is that possible when your boss is as nice as pie to everyone else and cold and nasty to me?

I get so anxious and stressed out just THINKING about coming to work, that I can't sleep at night.

It effects my relationship with J, because I get so grumpy and tired and just completely emotionally drained.

I'm guessing this can't be healthy?

I'm so scared to quit because I live alone. I need to pay a ridiculous amount of rent to live in a shoebox. I need to keep paying off my car, my loans, bills and not to mention my university fees which which are climbing to nearly $30, 000.

I have to stay at home on Saturday nights while my friends go out and party because I couldn't possibly spare a cent on having fun.

Certainly this can't be normal for a 23 year old? What have I gotten myself into?

Dear neighbour

Dear Ms my upstairs neighbour,

When you and your boyfriend are shagging, I can hear you faking your orgasms. Your bed makes a lot of noise... really, who has spring beds anymore?

This causes my boyfriend (god bless him) to giggle like a child, which illustrates his mental maturity of a five year old. This causes me to become very frustrated and start jabbing him in the ribs with my elbow, because it's the only thing that will shut him up.

This also causes me to lose a lot of sleep, especially when you wake up for round 2 at 4am.

Not enough sleep causes me to become a total bitch - so if you don't be careful, I will stop whomever it is in the stairwell and tell him exactly how much of a slut you are, because believe me, I HEAR ALL OF IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Please, please, please, close your bedroom window when you are having a party for 2, or is it 3?

Thanking you in advance.

Your Downstairs Neighbour

Valentine's Message

Happy Valentine's Day!

I know I know... it's made up, it's commercial, blah blah blah... I've heard it all.
But I LIKE IT!

I work in the city, so its wonderful at the end of the day to see girls carrying home massive bunches of roses. They always look quite proud but blush uncontrollably at the same time.

I got J a card and some pink fluffy handcuffs. Talk about blushing uncontrollably!

I didn't recieve anything and I won't because he doesn't BELIEVE in Valentine's Day. What is there to believe!?!? All you have to do is go to the florist and get me a bunch of flowers MORON!!!!!

Anyway, I found a note in the "Messages of Love" section in the newspaper that I am claiming for my own.
Anyone else without a Valentine or a boyfriend that is too STUBBORN to pull his finger out of his ass and DO SOMETHING (!!!!) can share it with me. It reads:

GIRLFRIEND
I heart you LOTS and LOTS.
Happiest boy ever!
Love always,
BOYFRIEND XOXOX

Hmmmmm, I wonder where it came from?!?! Probably some guy that knew about 80% of guys just can't be assed or claim they don't BELIEVE in Valentine's Day. Jerks.

Hope everybody has a good day and will just soak up the cheer like me.

Now excuse me while I go and get a hug off the guy in the big heart suit that is giving them out for free... along with a 2 for 1 coupon for Starbucks.

YGF

Good things

Good things about my weekend -

Having drinks with old friends. Playing pool and picking on each other, just like old times...

Realising that my ex boyfriend is a total LOSER and hoping that he will now leave me alone to spend my time with someone most definitely more worthy of my time. It's funny when you compare an old flame to a new one, and the new one comes out on top like a gladiator, roaring and waving his sword!!!!

Cleaning out my car. It was indeed the most messy, dirty, smelly car in the history of messy, dirty and smelly cars!
Now there are no McDonald's wrappers, beer cans or odd socks. And I like it much better, thankyou. My gorgeous little sis helped me out and made the whole process fun - not to mention funny when she actually fell out of the car wrapping herself in the vacuum cord. Ha!

Driving to my Mum's house in the country.





Please forgive the photo quality - I was actually driving my car at the time. Probably not the best thing to be doing while driving!

What a gorgeous summer weekend. I had the stereo up, I was singing my little heart out... Mum and I cooked chocolate cake together and she braided my hair. My brother, sister and I played video games until our hands were sore and we ate and ate and ate. And after everyone when to sleep I stayed up reading Little Women, just like old times. Bliss.


Coming home to possibly the most gorgeous, sweet and wonderfully delicious man I've EVER been with... Who makes doing laundry together the best fun I've ever had!

Bad things about my weekend -

11:15pm - after watching Butch Cassidy and the Sundance kid with J, curled up on the couch eating Mum's chocolate cake it suddenly dawned on me - work tomorrow.... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

If anyone is reading - I'd like to hear about the things that made your weekend or whole week good...

YGF

In contrast

Melbourne weather... Beautiful one day, perfect the next.

I'm glad it's rainy and cold. It's a reflection on my mood. Thank you Mr Weatherman.

It's cosy in the office and I've kicked off my heels and made an extra strong coffee. I'm comfy, but I'm sure that will all change when my boss walks in.

I had dinner with my Dad last night. He is going through a break up. They were together a long time and she was fantastic for him. My parents divorced when I was very young so I have never had a problem with letting other people in - I didn't have a choice. I have good memories with her. When we were together we were like a real family. Will I still be ok with letting new people in? I'm not so sure.

He's hurting and I hurt for him. It sucks seeing someone you love go through heart break. I feel a huge weight on my shoulders eventhough it really has nothing to do with me and there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. I wish there was something I could do to take the pain away. I wish there was something I could do to bring her back.

Why is it effecting my mood? I'm haven't figured that out yet. Why do I think my own partner would rather party with his friends than try to understand and support me? Why do I feel like there is no point to my relationship when it will just end in tears?

I need to wind down. I need to go out and get really really drunk.
Lucky for me this weekend I am catching up with some old work buddies - one of which includes my ex.
It will be interesting. Probably becuase he cheated on me, got her pregnant and is now engaged to be married to her.
I'm so glad I'm over that. Surely, I'm over that?!

Lunch Break

An absolutely stunning day...

Morning girl

How I wish I remembered to charge my I-pod before I left for work today.

Instead I was subjected to listen to people's early morning chatter on the 8:08am express. Don't get me wrong, I know last night's episode of the O.C was juicy and I know some people actually WANT to go to work (?!?!?!?!) but why so upbeat people? Why are you smiling and laughing? It's 8am dudes! I can't even crack a smile until I've finished my second, extra large, double shot, skinny latte!

How I wish I called in sick and crawled back into bed. I wish I was still snuggled up to my sleep-talking boy who asked me if I wanted more M&Ms when I got back from the shower. Cute.

Please let today be kind.

Now I'm going here: http://www.stewielive.com/ to cheer myself up!

YGF

So here we go!

Strange that I, me, Your Girl Friday, has actually jumped the gun and finally started one of these blog things! It will probably go unnoticed and die a lonely, horrible death but I'm hoping it's going to rock!

A big shout out to KDunk and Momo (or the artist formally known as...) who are super cool chicks who I've been reading for years now. Gave me inspiration to start dribbling out my thoughts - I can only hope that my dribble will be half as classy as theirs...
I would link to their sites, but don't know how... How do you drive this thing?!?!

YGF